this entire week ive sorta been in a bad mood and a good mood at the same time, but mostly bad.

i think mostly its because ive been pretty afraid parker is gonna leave me or something.

ive been saying it for a while to myself but one of these days im just gonna lash out against someone because i cant take it anymore.

well thats exactly what happened today, i did, to someone who was making a small joke and i told them to shut the fuck up because i dont care.

i feel bad but, at the same time i dont...and i dont know if i should or shouldnt.

am i bad person to lashing out at someone who wasnt even TRYING to bother me?

idk i was really bitchy to him for no reason, and honestly i didnt know i had it in me, to ACTUALLY lash out.

im gonna become a bitchy person arent i? Fuck...

Also bad news, all music classes had a field trip to another high school for a concert but i had to go take a makeup test because of all the days ive missed, and i came in late, anddddd didnt realize that in first period i had to go to a testing room...so i didnt even take the test.

O a good note though, someone finally invited me to sit with them today! I didnt really talk though just kinda sat there.